post fyp

honestly, it has been a roller coaster of emotions for these past few months. i guess when you win some, you have to accept the fact that you are bound to lose some.

after finishing fyp, i feel empty and hollow. it is hard to explain in words what i have felt during these period and i dont know where to start. when you keep it inside for too long, you just let it be. my classmates keep uploading pictures of their thesis and their group photos. hmmm... maybe its not my luck this time. its okay. i take it as a lesson learnt. i gave in too much and the consequences are deep. and on monday (literally, day after tomorrow) i have to sit for final exam and then, i have to finish drafting for cutse. this is crazy! i am tired of the whole thing.

i love our thesis title and topic. don't get me wrong but i am traumatized on the whole process already.     

hey

excuse me for not blogging for ages. so so so swamped with final year project :( i will be wrapping up this chapter of life soon. hmm, feeling mixed up all over again. 

spending time in the lab until late night walks you down into the memory lane. it is full of the pasts and what ifs. yeah, i may be a late bloomer but i guess its better late than never. it makes me ponder on the subjects we talked in the lab to fill the quietness of the night *well, more like we are bunch of chatterboxes :P* i guess thats why i always ask random questions out of blue. hahaha. 

graduation is approaching soon. its daunting to think what is there in store for me, will i be accepted working in international companies or small companies? although there is many articles saying grades doesnt matter, but lets face it grades actually DOES matter. That will pave the way to better things in future. For example, I am waitlisted for a conference at the end of the year because of my grades. Well, the organizer didn't specifically say that but you sorta know it when you got waitlisted. I did enough co-curriculum in uni for the first two years. So yeah... Aussie uni is quite difficult to score, go figure. Or maybe its because the staffs in our dept are tough on us. InsyaAllah rezeki comes from Allah and gotta work hard and do my best at the same time too :)

and that's the reason why i never really active looking for a boyfriend a.k.a looking for a man to marry. i dont have time to juggle both at the same time. my studies is more important than looking for a man to settle down. okaylah, that's half of the story. the other half is i got out of relationship where i completely lost trust in man years ago. you can say that i have trust issues :P i realized that i have been avoiding this issue for too long and i have to deal with the root of the problem in order for me to attain my own happiness. it wakes me up from bubble and from that point, i already know what i wanted from a relationship. i actually don't like casual dating. its like leaving things hanging in the air. i hope that the guy i end up with can put up with my quirks and habits. i have been away from dating field for ages. i forgot how its like to be in love again, things to do on dates etc. its different back then and these days.  another reason why i am so chilled about this is also because most of my close friends are not married yet :P i am not alone, baby! hahahaha 

there is still a lot i need to do in order to improve myself. i would have gotten married if that is what i wanted in first place but there is more to life than marriage. its a blessing to find the love of your life at an early age. every person have their own path to walk on. i am excited to close this chapter and moving on to next phase in life. wish me luck! :)

its been a while

new sem often unfold another new story. well i have one more year to go and shall do my best within this time frame :-) man, i just hope i can nail this sem and subsequent sems :D become team leader again for field trip. prolly i should be grateful and honored that my lecturer gave me the opportunity to become one. buttt its overwhelming and lots of responsibilities comes with it. im nervous and scared since i have never been to kundasang and i am leading 3 seniors in my group. only me and my other friend are first timer going there. hopefully God eases everything, InsyaAllah. less than a week to go there.

everybody have their own path to walk on. trust me that you will be the happiest person in the world once you start accepting your fate and keep faith in God. of course there are regrets along the way, wondering what we could've been, what we could've become. but when you sit down quietly, you begin to realize why and why not. that will make you calmer and happier than ever :)

  

have lotsa things to do but taking a break right now

hmm haven't blogged for so long. so many readings and works need to be done. andddd as a procrastinator, i dunno where to start. bahahahaha. to be honest, i feel burdensome when lecturer chose me to become the field trip group leader along with my 3 classmates. im just average. okay-okay only lah. im definitely not the most hardworking person in class, not the top scorer also. its daunting to be given a huge responsibility just because we were top 4 for geology 102. however, things happen for a reason. im just gonna follow the flow and I sincerely Thank Allah for giving me nice groupmates to work with. hopefully everything goes smoothly during field trip to Labuan. InsyaAllah. Amin :-) reading, reading and more reading to be continued.............

week 2

can you feel the heat? omggg. the whole new rules and regulations in our uni system freaks everyone out. we will definitely pass all the units and graduate on time. damn stress wei. when sigma one is vertical, its normal fault. sigma 2 for strike slip and sigma 3 for thrust fault. ahhh sudahhh... apakah yang aku merepek ni?

luckily the subber has finished subbing running man. there goes my weekly dose to keep myself balanced :D watching running man also reminds me of geology since they were rowing at the sea cave in vietnam. you guys should watch it. it is sososososo pretty. ahh line sangat laju apabila semua org dah tidur and im still restless. gotta try to sleep since niece asked me to go to bed now. hahahahaha