lots of luv !

can i have these two pretty please? one for school and another one for umm, jalan2? :D

settling down and blending in

its been 3 days and so far, so good :) its too early to evaluate so, there is still degree of skepticism in me *not in a bad way*.

now, there is something that i have always procrastinating/avoiding to do. can't play the blame game anymore :P i am writing this as a written promise to myself that i will change to be a better person and its a perfect time to do so! well, i cant be saved unless i save myself, isn't it? ;)

they say happiness makes your brain works better. i'll base my life on that motto from now on :)

one week left

just realized today is two of my favourite people's bday *don't worry i heart you guys too* hopefully that signifies a good omen :)

one week left and my holiday is going to end. i always have a love and hate relationship with holiday. nevertheless, this holiday is a very fruitful one. i have always been living like a bird and in my own shell. wait, bird and shell do not correlate with each other :P haha. probably shell is better replaced with nest ;) i enjoy soaring high above the sky to observe the world and sometimes when i am tired of flying, just remain on the ground being undetected. I often stumbled seeing familiar faces after all these years. i became numb since i have been away for too long and the changes within me, is radical indeed. changes and assimilation goes hand in hand. slowly, and slowly just like baby steps, InsyaAllah.

bangi has transformed a lot over the years. the roads used to be quite empty but now, it is always packed with cars. new buildings are rising. now, the pasar at section 1 has become an 'it' place to visit every morning. schools repainted into different colour. surge of memories emitted from brain subconsciously as i walked along the path. sweet memories, bitter memories, forgotten memories, all flashed at once. what kind of sorcery is this? haha. however, i am thankful i have been given the opportunity to make peace with the past. i shall cherished those memories and take few lessons from it. i will forever miss the pure feeling of being young and naive. it was beautiful ;) my eyes are a bit watery upon typing this line. it is sad thinking what could've been, could've become but i have to continue walking and walking. i have been blessed to meet wonderful people and to visit beautiful places along the way. words are never enough to write for this paragraph :P

my heart is at its calmest state now. i have been given ample period to rest and rejuvenate myself to embrace another upcoming academic year. yes, i am nervous and surprise me with the unknowns and what future has in store. finally, i get to feel the joy once again :)

soal hati

disclaimer : i used to post similar entry back then but that one was a meme and this one is a revised version since taste and preferences changes as years goes by. it may induce vomitting :D *dont say i didnt warn you..hahaha* jangan risau, saya masih bujang lagi

recollection of fb feed observation:

a got boyfriend, b is engaged, c is married, d is pregnant and e is expecting another child!

AND ALL THOSE SITUATIONS HAPPENS TO PEOPLE WHO ARE SAME AGE LIKE ME! its normal for situation a, b and c but d and e? omg, you gotta be joking! haha. thank God, im not having peer pressure or parents sudah tanya or saudara dah bising2 tanya :D but yeah, i gotta embrace this issue whether i like it or not ;) we can't run away from reality, aren't we?

the first step to all situation above is definitely searching for 'the one'. seriously aku tak terpikir langsung nak mencari *byk benda lain yg lebih menuntut perhatian dan kasih sayang aku* tapi aku start terpikir apabila sudah beberapa orang tanya kat aku, what kind of guy do i like? thanks for asking and it got me thinking what are the criterias i am looking for in a guy. kawan aku kata ko kena pikir and start visualize all those criterias to make it come true. kiranya law of attraction la ni. hehe. ada sorang lagi cakap u can attract a guy yang sama wavelength dengan u dan yang dulu2 tu tak payah pikir dah. inipun konsep law of attraction jugak. geng2 kumbang ni laju je pikir bab2 ni. hahahaha. tapi bagus la korg bagi kesedaran kat aku before all good ladybirds are taken and off the market :P

terigt time borak dgn member perempuan dulu, "faridah, kita ni dah kena mula doa tentang jodoh kita, jgn bila dah jumpa org tu kita doa dialah jodoh kita". ye tak ye jugak, bila dah jumpa yg specific baru nak doa mungkin dia bukan yang terbaik utk kita. sebaiknya doa kepada Allah ciri-ciri apa yang kita nak pada jodoh kita.

honestly, aku ni takde lah cerewet sangat. ciri2 nyata yang aku nak ada pd kebykan lelaki :P

first, tinggi. i just love walking beside tall guys. jgn risau aku ni pendek je. ni konfem dah boleh tick. hehe. rasa protected bila jalan sebelah diorg :P

second, tak merokok. ini aku malas nak elaborate lebih. rasanya geng kumbang paham kan. buang duit, mati cepat, bau busuk..ape lagi? hahaha

see, aku takdelah memilih :P takkan dua tu je kan. mesti la ada lagi. hahaha. i have always envisioned my relationship gradually blossom from friendship into love then into marriage. besides, there is an equal partnership in the relationship. neither side is dominating but instead we complete each other. we can put up with each others shortcomings and do things together comfortably. i want him not only as my husband but also my best friend in this world :D oh ye, romantik pun kena ada jugak kadang2. hehe. finally, if my family give me their blessing, im all yours! haha

kita merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan. InsyaAllah when the time comes, i am ready for next step. for now, i am content with my life :) nak enjoy zaman bujang dulu..kekekeke

stereotyping

I wanna do a review/recap? of last year and post my resolutions for this year but I think I should just keep it to myself.

I wish someone tell me before that its okay to pursue anything you want in life (as long as you work hard in order to be successful). Somehow, Malaysians have this stereotype which your kids should do either medicine or engineering or actuarial science after SPM. I don't deny that Malaysia needs doctors and engineers in order for us to become more developed and competent with other countries but other fields should be taken into account like economics for example. Okaylah I gotta to give some credits to future and already-become doctors and engineers, you guys are smart. Smart enough to meet the requirements and pass your exams with flying colours and graduated from your program :)

I wish I was exposed to other fields before making my own choice back then. I wish I get more insights on different field. Sometimes, being smart doesn't mean your options is limited to only medicine and engineering. It also depends on the persons interest and aptitude. In the end of the day, money and prestige will come once you are successful in what you do (of course, money and prestige are subjective and everyone is entitled to their own opinion). Tengok chef wan. He is the living proof of what I said earlier. You guys should read his facebook updates. Serious rasa inspired and motivated tau. In Japan and US, the students do consult with their counselor for their choice of major in university and which uni they go to *this is based on dramas I watched :P*. Teenagers need guidance from adults for big decisions in life. Instead, we, Malaysians looked for scholarships available and make our decision from there. I don't blame Malaysians for that because tertiary education here is very costly.

In conclusion, I believe other fields can contribute to the nation as big as contributions from medical and engineering field. People's mindset should be changed. Go! Explore what life has to offer before you settle down and make your own choice!