moving forward

True to the title, I am. I should be in peace and looking forward to new experience and coming days which Raya is happening right now! (haha) Solitude evokes my emotions. Haih. Why now? Why after all these years? I guess I have found my calling to bury the hatchet and open a new leaf. I was effing fragile few days ago. Fragile as in fragile water pipe. At this moment, I want to be happy. I want to. I dont want to bear this pain again. I want to seal it forever. Enough that it happens now and I have paid my conscience. I learn my lesson and I also want to own a genuine smile where people are infectious by my smile just like my niece.

Probably I should blog my trip to UK and Rome to liven things up. My life is not that pathetic. My life is okay-lah. I should be thankful and grateful to God for my life. Maybe I should use white background for this blog layout to signify purity and new beginning. Did I tell you how adorable my niece is? How she loves to smile when she is happy? Her smile is infectious. I was enamored by her smile. Being a baby is such a bliss. Talking like this makes you feel I am biased toward my own niece (el preferiti) but you should spend a day with her. Then you know what I mean. Even I hope one day I have a fun baby like her with someone I love :P Hopefully, with God's blessing.

I feel calmer after doing soul searching. That does not mean I am done with it. This is just the beginning. Lo and behold people, new me is unveiling slowly :D Finally, I am able to move on which I thought I do back then. This should be the end of me talking about this chapter. I believe that when I finally I move on without harboring any regret or remorse, something beautiful will happen and I am looking forward to it. It might happen soon or later on (which I dont mind at all) .

As I told you before, all I want is to be happy and successful. Happy in my own way and contented, too. God, please guide me to path of eternal happiness and success. If I can have it my way, I want to travel around the world and Florida is on top of my list. Not because of the Disneyland or Universal Studios, its because of the Harry Potter theme park. Omg. Its a must. I miss USA soil. It has been years since the last time I went there. See you, Florida in few years :)

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all. Maaf ku pinta dari hujung tudung hingga hujung kaki :)

i hate this part

the best has yet to come. I will cling to that hope :)

krisis

aku dah tak tahu nak tulis apa..kadang2 bila aku tulis entry, tak lama pastu aku pk cam bodo je entry ni, so aku end up not writing any entry at all..aku rasa aku da blog pasal macam2 bende..like what happened on the particular day, aku masak apa and of course la, rant..i rant on blog most of the time..entahla..i afraid of being personal in this blog..kadang2, aku rasa cam segan lak bila member tanya pasal bende yang aku tulis kat dalam ni (on rants la)..aku rasa aku ade masalah untuk open up kepada org tentang aku..bila aku duk padang pasir ni, aku rasa aku dah mula berubah..tapi aku rasa tak perlu kot nak mention..nanti kata aku menunjuk2 lak kan..takpelah biarlah rahsia bende ni..hehehe

obituary

tanpa mu, ku rasa
jujur ku akur
resah dan gelisah

you indeed were faithful to me :(

4 more monday and off to a gateway which i anticipated when i am about to graduate actually ;)

i cant wait to get this exam to be over and done with.

wish me luck

apabila kenangan lama menyapa kembali

aku tak sangka setelah sekian lama.
aku dengan haluan aku dan kau dengan haluan kau.
walaupun sebenarnya kita dekat di mata tetapi semakin hari semakin jauh di hati.

masa sungguh cepat berlalu.
pejam celik, pejam celik
rupanya sudah jauh aku berjalan dari titik perpisahan kau dan aku.
jauh berjalan luas pemandangan.
tetapi takdir menemukan kita kembali di titik yang berbeza.
titik yang berbeza, orang yang sama.

maafkan aku kerana tidak berhenti di titik itu.
aku tidak bersedia lagi untuk berhenti sebentar.
walaupun jarak di antara titik itu dan titik terdahulu agak jauh.
mungkin takdir akan menemukan kita semula suatu hari nanti.
mungkin pada waktu itu aku akan berhenti sebentar
sebelum aku kembali meneruskan perjalanan yang tiada penghujungnya ini.