its been a while

new sem often unfold another new story. well i have one more year to go and shall do my best within this time frame :-) man, i just hope i can nail this sem and subsequent sems :D become team leader again for field trip. prolly i should be grateful and honored that my lecturer gave me the opportunity to become one. buttt its overwhelming and lots of responsibilities comes with it. im nervous and scared since i have never been to kundasang and i am leading 3 seniors in my group. only me and my other friend are first timer going there. hopefully God eases everything, InsyaAllah. less than a week to go there.

everybody have their own path to walk on. trust me that you will be the happiest person in the world once you start accepting your fate and keep faith in God. of course there are regrets along the way, wondering what we could've been, what we could've become. but when you sit down quietly, you begin to realize why and why not. that will make you calmer and happier than ever :)

  

have lotsa things to do but taking a break right now

hmm haven't blogged for so long. so many readings and works need to be done. andddd as a procrastinator, i dunno where to start. bahahahaha. to be honest, i feel burdensome when lecturer chose me to become the field trip group leader along with my 3 classmates. im just average. okay-okay only lah. im definitely not the most hardworking person in class, not the top scorer also. its daunting to be given a huge responsibility just because we were top 4 for geology 102. however, things happen for a reason. im just gonna follow the flow and I sincerely Thank Allah for giving me nice groupmates to work with. hopefully everything goes smoothly during field trip to Labuan. InsyaAllah. Amin :-) reading, reading and more reading to be continued.............

week 2

can you feel the heat? omggg. the whole new rules and regulations in our uni system freaks everyone out. we will definitely pass all the units and graduate on time. damn stress wei. when sigma one is vertical, its normal fault. sigma 2 for strike slip and sigma 3 for thrust fault. ahhh sudahhh... apakah yang aku merepek ni?

luckily the subber has finished subbing running man. there goes my weekly dose to keep myself balanced :D watching running man also reminds me of geology since they were rowing at the sea cave in vietnam. you guys should watch it. it is sososososo pretty. ahh line sangat laju apabila semua org dah tidur and im still restless. gotta try to sleep since niece asked me to go to bed now. hahahahaha 

transition part 2

i think transition is still apt for this entry..hence, part 2

most of my peers have achieved a lot in life at this stage of life. i have always been outside, looking in, you know. having fun in observing people but i dunno how to respond/react most of the time. its time to break out of the mould. slowly and slowly. i realize another particular weakness of mine is giving shallow answers. to be honest, i don't mean to come across as a shallow person but that what comes to my mind. i toned down a lot compared to the old days. somebody seriously need to teach me some socializing 101 or code of conduct to deal with strangers. but then again, its not something that can be learn from textbook but it is rather a long journey of dealing with people. i shall bear in mind that i must give better and more solid answers in future. i must! family is definitely my biggest critics. lol

the beauty of meeting different people is the dynamics and the vibe u got from them. it is just contagious. those people that i know since we were kids have grown up becoming more refined and i, am still like this. gahh...daunting indeed. there must be a reason why our path crossed again after all these years, isn't it?

niece says #3

#8

" i need my brother. without him we cant be a family "

#9

niece : my first *motioned to angry birds catapult and mind you, the first one is a normal lastik and now the catapult has fully upgraded to electronic with lighting and music* has broken.
me : its okay, grandpa can fix it.
niece : no, my dad can't fix it (2x)
me : dont worry, grandpa can fix it.
grandpa : i can fix it for you, *niece's name*.

#10

me : hello *niece's name*
niece : hello aunty nur
me : how are you?
niece : good
me : what is your mum doing?
niece : she is packing some stuffs
me : what is *nephew's name* doing?
niece : he is playing angry birds
me : what are you doing?
niece : talking to you *while playing with her toys and wont say she is busy*

transition to adulthood

#1

in my family eyes, i am forever the baby in the family. now, i feel..old when my peers getting engaged, married and giving birth and started working and dealing with uncomfortable situations/problems in matured way. i am happy with the way i am now and my life progress so far. everything happens for a reason. i am happy that i have been given ample time to improve myself and still improving before becoming an employee or whatever huge event will happen in my life one day. shall cherish every time that passes by as it will never be the same after this. gone were the days of being carefree (less, to be exact). gone were the days buying ridiculous stuffs such as collecting the whole series of pokemon sticker :P. taste is getting more refined. the end *in niece's voice* better refrain now or otherwise it will become more shallow :P

#2

one keyword : professional. po..po..po..poker face, po po poker face. i hate it when i wear my heart on my sleeves which makes me vulnerable to other people. sigh. but hey, at least i am professional enough to put my personal views aside and embrace the situation. i bet more to go in future. hahaha. be cool, yo! networking is getting more crucial at this stage of life.....

#3

anyway, not all things are perfect. my new resolution for this year is less cursing. hahaha. yeah, you heard me. so far, my progress is good. i manage to hold my tongue most of the time unless if i am super pissed. well, you know what people say on hell hath no fury like a women scorned :P i ran into a small problem with a famous aviation company which-shall-not-be-named and Alhamdulillah, it is already settled. thanks to the bank staffs (maybe thats why its easier to get through them cos people barely complains). i learn that not everyone/everything is perfect and its up to you whether you are able to tolerate them/it after its over. after being at peace with everything, i begin to appreciate small, tiny, little things in life :) 

niece says #2

i seldom talk to niece nowadays cos getting adequate sleep is more important to me. hehehe. well, niece has grow up a lot and it is fun observing her progress :D

#5

me : how old are you, *insert niece's name*?
niece : i am 4 years old but i am going to be 5 in june.

now she knows the concept of months and eager to be older unlike in the past.

#6

while niece munching coco pops.....

me : what are you eating?
niece : im eating coco pops. it gives me energy so that i become healthy.

#7

me : so tell me, what did you guys do in london?
niece : we went to hotel...
me : and play angry birds
niece : *collapsed in embarrassment :D

niece's words

my niece says a lot of interesting stuffs. we, sometimes are surprised with her words. 

#1

niece : i am *insert her real name* . i am a big girl now. 

me : how old are you, *her name* ?

niece : i am three years old.

hahaha

#2

during raya open house at parents friend's house, she was 3 at that time

uncle : what do you want to be when you grow up?

niece : a princess!

#3

when me and my sisters were hanging out

me : *her name* must've missed grandpa a lot.

niece : all the time...

i seriously did not expect her to respond because she was playing at that time.

#4

i was wearing mask and it was close to bedtime

 

my sis : who's that, *niece's name* ? *motioned to the screen*

niece : its aunty nur ghost! 

my sis : aunty nur is wearing makeup

me : your mum wears these too

niece : no, mum always pretty.

me : *pokerface*

happy new year!

2012 is a better year compared to before. i'll be done with this by end of next year, InsyaAllah. time flies so fast! i'll try to be more fit, read more and strive for excellence for this year :)
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updated :

new year begins. as i grow up, i begin to reflect my actions in life. rasa macam bodoh gaduh dengan orang dulu2 over silly reasons. if i have the chance to meet them again, i hope we no longer harbor the same feeling back then, instead, lets be civil and bury the hatchet. one thing i have to constantly remind myself : it is okay that you can't get along with everyone. it is okay. now, i am trying to make effort to rekindle friendship. since i am kinda lost here. yela, perempuan bila dah ada boyfriend pun susah nak spend time with girlfriends apatah lagi bila dah kahwin and ada anak :P

its going to be a challenging year for me. its make or break this time. my capability is going to be fully tested. InsyaAllah i can make it. Amin :-) If i can make it this year, why can't i for this time? work hard, PLAY HARDER! that should be our motto in life. hahahahaha